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Posted on 2007.06.04 at 17:28
I've decided I like drawing with colored pencils. I drew a picture of Arashi from X and it actually turned out much better than I had thought it would.

I wonder, will I ever get over the loss of my childhood. It seems so silly to hold on to since I know holding on will only hold me back. This weekend I was with my friend and her family at A-con. I had a wonderful time. Her brothers called me part of their extended family. The thing was, I really felt like I was a part of it. That, coupled with the convention itself, I think made me realize that for the first time it was like I really fit in. When her mother reached to carry a sack for me and started to say "here, let mom hold that" it felt nice. I realized my mother had never acted that way, never said those words for me and never will.

Although it makes me sad to realize what I have never had, I am so grateful that I was able to experience it this weekend. I don't think I can express how happy I was there. I hope I made a good impression and they would be receptive to me going with them again. Mel-chan, thank you and your family so very much. I cannot express how much last weekend means to me. Words just simply aren't there to express how I feel right now. Thank you.

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