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And this is why I don't post in spiritual communities

Posted on 2006.07.18 at 04:06
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So after exhausting my patience with research I find a spiritual chatroom that actually has people in it. I don't give out my location and honestly it confused me as to why it was important. Eventually I asked one of their teachers about mediumship. I asked her how she knows when she talks to them that it is really them and not her own mind that is answering. I even specified that I meant when you are not doing a reading for someone else. I mentioned something about how do you trust it to be real and not your own mind. She goes in to hwo she can tell and has done it for so many years. I again ask and she says well, she can ask for confirmation for the sitter. 1. I hate the use of the term sitter. 2. I already stated I meant when she is not giving a reading, but rather having a conversation of her own.

So I explained I was asking for my benefit, not to make her life difficult and she commented that she was being told I needed to focus and build a relationship and trust. I decided to just leave. I'm tired, frustrated, annoyed, and now dumbfounded. I feel like my question is so basic and immature that I should already know the answer, but when I ask it not only do I not get an answer, I get treated like someone who has no clue about spirit communication. I may not be the best, but I've had my fair share of experiences and pushes in this direction. I tried to explain things have been changing and I'm just impatient and she just kept going on "well their voice is different..." Yeah it is. But when I read a book each voice is different for each character too. I said my mind keeps analyzing things...she then said that was the problem. No shit.

I swear if I wasn't so damned curious I would just never ask anyone anything. She meant well, but she was missing what I was really asking. And despite the fact that my energy may feel child-like I am not a child nor am I a new soul. If I had been coherent I would have asked her simply how she personally came to have confidence in this type of communication, but then after 46 straight hours of getting my ass handed to me at work and very little sleep I was lucky to be able to form a coherent sentence. I'm so tired I can't sleep. I'm finishing this cup of milk and going to bed anyway. I have to fall asleep eventually. I trust that the rest of this...unrest that keeps me awake will resolve itself shortly and the path will become clear.


ankh_f_n_khonsu at 2006-07-18 09:37 (UTC) (Link)
Wherever you go, there you are.

The Path is littered with the corpses of fools.

akiko_kalla at 2006-07-18 19:10 (UTC) (Link)
Agreed; I'm just impatient. Most the people mean well, but it's like they just miss what I'm really asking and see any question as a very beginning one. Rather than asking a question to clarify what I mean they start spouting off beginning knowledge which leads me to believe although they mean well, they are more interested in their own words and status than in listening and helping others. Maybe I'm just looking for something that doesn't exist, at least not in t his realm.
ankh_f_n_khonsu at 2006-07-19 01:50 (UTC) (Link)
Or looking in the wrong places...

akiko_kalla at 2006-07-19 03:44 (UTC) (Link)
Agreed, which is why I feel I must leave the country. At least if it is possible to find it here, I have exhausted my own resources and do not know where else to look.
ankh_f_n_khonsu at 2006-07-19 03:54 (UTC) (Link)
Wherever you go, there you are.

I've been around the world three full times. Lived in more than a dozen countries. People everywhere appear mostly the same. You'll find equal levels of willfull ignorance everywhere, only in different guises.

However, in some cases you can get more isolation outside of the distractions of your native environment. This can lead to growth, but it may not be growth that increases your ability to interact within your native environment.

You wind up moving past those you left behind, with fewer and fewer opportunities the further you go.

With your penchant for Japan, have you looked into the JET program?

akiko_kalla at 2006-07-19 04:03 (UTC) (Link)
Yes, and I wish they paid just a little more. If they did there would be no question I could pay my bills and I would go. I am thinking perhaps this year or the next I might financially be able to do it. My reason for wishing to go is not the people; it is because there literally is not a place or way for me to learn what I am searching for here. At least none that I have found.
anthonyjaycee at 2006-07-18 17:50 (UTC) (Link)
This channeled message Q&A, that I read last night, covers the same general topic-- discernment of channeled messages:


There's not really any left-brained answer to this question, though.
akiko_kalla at 2006-07-18 19:03 (UTC) (Link)
Saying to trust is not the same as doing it though. Especially when things are changing so fast. I sometimes don't know why I even bother to look anymore.
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