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Educating the country

Posted on 2006.04.14 at 23:26
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This country has become too complacent. Its people seek to place the blame for failure on someone else, rather than accepting it, learning from it and fixing it. Granted there are many teachers who should not be teaching, no one can force a child to succeed. Stop blaming the entity that is already overstressed, overworked, underpaid and underfunded and look at what you can do to help. In the end that's all that really matters anyway; not what everyone else did or didn't do, but what you did or didn't do. Don't get me wrong, teachers need to be held accountable, but so do parents, students, and the government.

My students discovered my lack of a specific religion. I didn't realize it was Easter and they were talking about some church function and I asked what it was about. Then the "do you go to church?" "do you believe in Jesus?" "do you believe in God?" "do you believe Jesus died on the cross?" questions flew at me. Trying to avoid getting into the specifics of what I do believe but provide them with enough information that they understand I am not totally devoid of any spiritual path was a new challenge.

Sometimes I truly feel I don't belong in this country. I am wanting to apply to teach in Japan next year, but I am almost afraid of what might happen. Leaving the only security I have is not easy for someone who has had so little security in the past. Not that my job is a sure thing here anyway. None the less, these insecurities won't stop me...I just have to hope I'm accepted and can finacially do it.

I have come to the conclusion that I just won't fit in anywhere really. I don't fit in here, but I most likely will not totally fit in in another country because I am not native to it. But I have such a strong feeling of why I am here that I have conflicting feelings on it. Something so simple, yet so complex. Most days it truly feels like I'm from another planet...

On a totally different note...anyone know anything about migraines? I'm afraid I might be getting them but I don't want to make more out of a bad headache than it is.


gypsymom at 2006-04-15 09:05 (UTC) (Link)
I must encourage you... if you feel pulled very strongly to go to Japan, or it has been a dream of yours for some time, I hope you will take the risk and go. You can always come back. I would like to share with you what I know about Japan. Even though it was 30 years ago, I lived there for 4 years being a military wife. I absolutely loved the people and the country, they welcomed us everywhere, and if you made even the smallest effort to speak their language, or take part in their culture, they bent over backwards to help you even more. They have a great desire to learn English, and pay very well to learn it as we speak it. They are excellant students, and in most cases it was a required course of study. I know alot can change in 30 years, but I have not heard much to the contrary so far. I would go back to live there again for a while, in a heart beat.
akiko_kalla at 2006-04-16 08:51 (UTC) (Link)
At this point it's a matter of financial capability. Hopefully my debts will be paid off enough that I can go and take a cut in pay. The teaching pay won't be all that different but I tutor and waitress here so I can pay all the bills. Then again, not having to pay car insurance would probably offset one of those. But I'm going to apply...just hope I get accepted.
ex_rong at 2006-04-15 11:14 (UTC) (Link)
You know, after getting my degree, I am contemplating to go Japan and teach english too.
akiko_kalla at 2006-04-16 08:51 (UTC) (Link)
Hehe, well if I get accepted I could be there up to three years. If you do that while I'm there maybe we could meet up. ^_^
ex_rong at 2006-04-16 09:03 (UTC) (Link)
Haha yesh! Even if I don't register, I can always go there and look for you. We can go travelling together! :D

Btw, couldn't you stay for more than 3 yrs?

akiko_kalla at 2006-04-17 04:33 (UTC) (Link)
Just with this specific program you can renew the opportunity up to three years. If I understand it correctly anyway. Not really sure why though.
ex_rong at 2006-04-17 05:33 (UTC) (Link)
Oh, so that means after 3 years we have to come back to our motherland.. that's not very good. :/
vicemage at 2006-04-17 05:20 (UTC) (Link)
I used to get migraines a lot... are you just getting headaches, or is it something that feels lodged deep in your brain, maybe some visual distortion, photophobia and oversensitivity to sounds, nausea, etc? If you've got those things (the visual distortion/aura doesn't always happen with everyone), then it's more likely you're getting migraines; you should probably see a doctor about that. Usually there's a single or few specific triggers and they can help you identify them to avoid them. (Mine was flickering bright lights; I've heard of foods or sounds also being triggers.)
akiko_kalla at 2006-04-17 23:15 (UTC) (Link)
Yeah, I am slightly nauseated but I seem more sensitive to motion than sound. Seems to go from the side to the front of my head. I was thinking perhaps it's this medicine, but I've had it before. Who knows, but this is the third day I've had this headache, so if it doesn't go away soon I'm going to have to do something. It's hard to think.
vicemage at 2006-04-18 04:30 (UTC) (Link)
There's a definate chance it could be a migraine, and it could be tied to the medicine too. I would strongly suggest seeing a doctor in either case, since if it is the medicine it's probably not supposed to be doing that to you...
akiko_kalla at 2006-04-21 05:39 (UTC) (Link)
Can't afford a doctor right now, but apparently I need to see an allergist too. Joy. Things to do over the summer, ne? I hate money...
vicemage at 2006-04-24 20:03 (UTC) (Link)
Money sucks. >.
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