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What an experience

Posted on 2006.07.11 at 00:58
Current Music: Silent Warrior ~Enigma
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I have been giddy all day with entirely too much energy for someone suffering from lack of sleep. I guess you could say it culminated today with this. Call it a trance, call it a deep medatative state, call it whatever. I'm not sure what to think about it, and if you aren't into my posts on spiritual matters it probably will make even less sense so you may not want to read it.

This time things seemed more personal; focused on me instead of the world, so I guess I'm a bit more nervous about interpreting it. I don't want to make it into something it's not and I was a little afriad it was seeping into what I was experiencing, but it was mostly pretty clear--although I don't remember much of it at the moment. I may be setting myself up for unpleasant discussion, but I have never been one to back away from the truth. I'm still quite full of energy and feel basically like I'm buzzing around with a current running through me. But my eyes are sleepy, so I think this will wait until tomorrow.



and it's like being full of light or positive energy or something so that you don't have room for negative but you still can take more light even tho you brimming over ...or something like that

Kalla's Friend says:
YES

Kalla's Friend says:
ITS AWESOME

Kalla's Friend says:
AND YES HARD TO DESCRIBE REALLY

Kalla's Friend says:
IS LIKE YOU HAVE TO EXPERIENCE IT TO UNDERTSAND KIND OF THING

Kalla says:
yeah

Kalla says:
I keep seeing hands...is that for me or you?

Kalla's Friend says:
HMM MAYBE YOU

Kalla says:
oh whee...cd skipped

Kalla's Friend says:
LOL

Kalla says:
is like...a symbol is put there

Kalla says:
and forehead

Kalla's Friend says:
THINK ITS CONFIRMATION FOR YOU

Kalla says:
btrw...I'm half here hnow

Kalla's Friend says:
BUT I HAVE BEEN HAVING FEELING SOMETHING ON MY FOREHEAD

Kalla's Friend says:
LOL

Kalla says:
hopefully I won't fall asleep

Kalla's Friend says:
WELL DO SO IF YOU NEED TO

Kalla says:
lol, I have before

Kalla's Friend says:
LOL

Kalla says:
is like being outside of body

Kalla's Friend says:
SO COOL

Kalla's Friend says:
I WANT TO DO THAT FEEL THAT

Kalla says:
palms up offering them for symbol

Kalla's Friend says:
YES

Kalla says:
kida mmmmmakes you sick sometimes tho

Kalla's Friend says:
LOL

Kalla's Friend says:
I GET BAD BUTTERFLIES

Kalla says:
am in white

Kalla says:
they frekin on my forehead

Kalla's Friend says:
LOL COOL

Kalla says:
tickles

Kalla says:
wtf does he have gloves

Kalla says:
covers eyes, see with eyes true eyes

Kalla says:
do you want me to do this here or do you need to go

Kalla's Friend says:
WELL I WILL HAVE TO GO IN A BIT TO FEED KITTENS

Kalla's Friend says:
HAVE TO FEED BEFORE I GO TO BED

Kalla's Friend says:
BUT CONTINUE

Kalla's Friend says:
THIS IS COOL

Kalla's Friend says:
YOU WANT READ THEY ASKING

Kalla says:
no? lol

Kalla's Friend says:
SHE ASKING YOU

Kalla says:
not to mention I in another place

Kalla's Friend says:
LOL

Kalla says:
cant fuckin type

Kalla's Friend says:
LOL

Kalla says:
i won't be able to answer them

Kalla says:
my legs...whoa

Kalla's Friend says:
THINK THEY'D NOTICE

Kalla's Friend says:
LOL

Kalla says:
no

Kalla says:
lol

Kalla says:
is like I have no legs

Kalla's Friend says:
OOOOOOO

Kalla says:
oh, ground...lol

Kalla says:
always forget

Kalla's Friend says:
YUP ALWAYS GOOD THING

Kalla says:
would it be possible for you to cut and past it because I won't remember parts of it?

Kalla says:
I hate to ask, but my msn might not get it all

Kalla's Friend says:
YES THERE IS SAVE CONVO THING ON HERE

Kalla says:
ty

Kalla says:
is like a dark blue/purple light. it's bright, but is soft glow

Kalla says:
pure

Kalla says:
the flame they say walk into the flame

Kalla says:
cleanseing

Kalla says:
fire is cool

Kalla says:
come this way

Kalla says:
gold...book I think

Kalla says:
gestures to book

Kalla says:
inside is stories of life

Kalla says:
of age past

Kalla says:
and to come

Kalla says:
begins with a...mabye atlantis

Kalla says:
I see someone's eyes

Kalla says:
in hood and claok, being held by the man she loves

Kalla says:
pulling her close

Kalla says:
tears

Kalla says:
he has staff

Kalla says:
witch

Kalla says:
destruction

Kalla says:
she goes to hill

Kalla says:
he is destorying it or starting reaction

Kalla says:
she watches from hill

Kalla says:
knows he iwll die

Kalla says:
split soul

Kalla says:
she trieds to cast spell send ball of light

Kalla says:
try to protect people honest good

Kalla says:
but goes with their souls into sky

Kalla says:
destruction must relive life

Kalla says:
the man must come back repent

Kalla says:
she lis lost

Kalla says:
crashing waves

Kalla says:
she sees it gone

Kalla says:
truns away from that life

Kalla says:
sad face exposed in moonlight

Kalla says:
beautiful

Kalla says:
twin soul split

Kalla says:
walking down hallway now

Kalla says:
large columns

Kalla says:
to ask for permission

Kalla says:
claock flaows

Kalla says:
hear footesps

Kalla says:
kneel and ask, to come here

Kalla says:
to live life with him

Kalla says:
offer up hands

Kalla says:
symbole evoked there

Kalla says:
starseed child never go before, time work

Kalla says:
smbol already over eye

Kalla says:
he plapces hand over heart

Kalla says:
chaantgin

Kalla says:
don't understand speech

Kalla says:
pour forth soul into world and live through these eyes

Kalla says:
bring knowledge back

Kalla says:
come to us from beyond and return to yourself

Kalla says:
child he touches forehead

Kalla says:
he is like a priest or something

Kalla says:
oh, i see his eyes in my mind, like guide's eyes

Kalla says:
just a flash tho

Kalla says:
bring him back with you daer chinld

Kalla says:
don't loose sight of battle journey

Kalla says:
must pay price

Kalla says:
journey to him find soul

Kalla says:
free soul

Kalla says:
and free self

Kalla says:
golden colors

Kalla says:
looking away to the left if I'm facing it

Kalla says:
see ocean tides come above the waves and take city

Kalla says:
punisment

Kalla says:
sacrifice

Kalla says:
love lost

Kalla says:
forget nto tudies as...care??

Kalla says:
word isn't englih

Kalla says:
keeper?

The following message could not be delivered to all recipients:
word isn't englih

The following message could not be delivered to all recipients:
keeper?

Kalla says:
word isn't english

Kalla's Friend says:
keep

Kalla says:
keep?

Kalla's Friend says:
continue

Kalla says:
(damn electic device)

Kalla says:
find books lost in the ocean and return to...like glory or splendor

Kalla says:
receieve past

Kalla says:
lie free in waves

Kalla says:
sunlight hisne

Kalla says:
I waking away of temple

Kalla says:
am here now

Kalla says:
litsen to quake?

Kalla says:
my voice

Kalla says:
is like someone touching my face

Kalla says:
look at me

Kalla says:
I feel nerouvs and like a surge of energy

Kalla says:
see me

Kalla says:
feel me...is real

Kalla says:
in time will trust

Kalla says:
just feel this moment

Kalla says:
am here alwasy

Kalla says:
even when u mad

Kalla says:
relax

Kalla says:
no scared

Kalla says:
bring down, ground

Kalla says:
I don't know how to see you

Kalla says:
open eyes

Kalla says:
scared

Kalla says:
why don't be

Kalla says:
don't know why

Kalla says:
is not ending

Kalla says:
let come don't strain

Kalla says:
light is bright

Kalla says:
why is it bright

Kalla says:
up hight

Kalla says:
wings

Kalla says:
angel at alter

Kalla says:
bring u to them learn to fly

Kalla says:
with wings

Kalla says:
wings? can fly with wings..

Kalla says:
trust me

Kalla says:
take hand

Kalla says:
no gloves

Kalla says:
green and blue lights

Kalla says:
pruple too

Kalla says:
see thru eyes of lgold

Kalla says:
come now free self

Kalla says:
(angels harder to hear)

Kalla says:
take ...looks like a dagger or letter openiner with dangling thing

Kalla says:
inside, push into heart

Kalla says:
rest and heal sleep must sleep

Kalla says:
come back

Kalla says:
to learn

Kalla says:
take with u sign of crest? I dunno

Kalla says:
and peace

Kalla says:
hands on my face

Kalla says:
pulls me into hug

Kalla says:
gloves

Kalla says:
remember always slef

Kalla says:
come to me in time not yet work to do

Kalla says:
free self

Kalla says:
I think I'm done

Kalla says:
I feel really dizzy


Comments:


blue_jean_girl
blue_jean_girl at 2006-07-11 16:17 (UTC) (Link)
Do you find it hard to be near electronics when you get like that?

The hum of a computer makes my entire being hurt when I'm 'dizzy'.
akiko_kalla
akiko_kalla at 2006-07-11 22:07 (UTC) (Link)
I just find that electronics sometimes act up when I'm like that. I've not had electronics effect me, at least not so far. Unless a loud noise or something startles me I don't really notice anything around me when I'm like that. However when I come back and am dizzy I sometimes have balance issues and have to put my hands in soil or get rid of excess energy somehow.

blue_jean_girl
blue_jean_girl at 2006-07-12 00:48 (UTC) (Link)
Right on, haven't tried anything with the soil. But I have worked on artwork.
akiko_kalla
akiko_kalla at 2006-07-12 01:35 (UTC) (Link)
Well, I have a lot of trouble grounding so soil is a good thing for me to have around. Maybe you're just better at grounding than I am. ^_^
blue_jean_girl
blue_jean_girl at 2006-07-12 14:52 (UTC) (Link)
I don't know what you mean by grounding. I do 'find my center'. But it's like an internal balance if that's close to what you mean...
akiko_kalla
akiko_kalla at 2006-07-13 00:51 (UTC) (Link)
It's kind of like centering, yes. Basically connecting yourself to the earth and this plane of existance? I'm not really sure how to describe it. I guess maybe rooting your awareness to this body and consciousness even though your consciuosness may be going to other levels, or something? Haha, you'd think I would be able to describe it better. But I think it is very similar to what you are explaining.
(Anonymous) at 2006-07-13 02:38 (UTC) (Link)
I actually try to let go of my body as much as possible. It's kind of like I turn my awarness of my own body into this pin point just behind my eyes where all I'm actually aware of is my contiousness, and then I try to do an 'expand'. It kind of feels like water on a table, I can't say it's an OBE because I'm not in human form. But I do feel like 'everything around me' becomes part of an eb and flow of energy. And the shadow of my physical body becomes part of it as well. (It's like my arms are wrapped around infinity :D)

Centering is when I try to bring something out, like my artwork.

Hmmm... I've always seen them as two different things, but I've never done any reading on it, and have only found out how to do it by meditating or focusing on my artwork, depending on which one I was doing.
akiko_kalla
akiko_kalla at 2006-07-13 03:04 (UTC) (Link)
Grounding was first introduced to me as part of preparing to communicate with spirit in addition to protection. Lately it has become less of a simple meditation and more of a trance like state. I'm just crappy at describing it...hehe.
blue_jean_girl
blue_jean_girl at 2006-07-13 02:39 (UTC) (Link)
sorry, that last post was from me and I forgot to sign in...lol.
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