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Il n'ya pas des mots

Posted on 2015.11.15 at 02:14
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Lebanon, France, Syria...just a few of the places affected by such violence. While the attacks in Paris hit me personally, it does not escape me that this is a larger issue. While I do not condone violence, I do understand the feeling of wanting to end it and realize sometimes that path leads us to war. I do not begrudge those who feel violence in their hearts as a response to the pain and anger they are feeling; it is just not something I understand.

Moreover, I am frustrated with those who have been so self-consumed that they did not realize, or perhaps care enough, to do something on one of the many other occasions this same violence has taken place. In no way am I saying the terrorists were justified; rather I am saying this type of violence could have been prevented had people opened their eyes and hearts earlier--on both sides. Now the would has festered into a full-blown infection that humanity must decide how to cure.

Life is a web...any time hatred or violence occurs to one of us, it is against all of us. And by us, I mean all life but especially humans. We are the caretakers of the lives on this planet whether we want to be or not. And how have we taken care of each other? The sad thing is, I do not need to look across the ocean to see the impact of our selfishness, broken communication, and false compassion. I do not deal with these situations well.

I am someone who in a crisis, will be calm and collected to get everyone through as safely as possible. I fall apart afterward. However, I am at my worst when I am forced to watch others suffer knowing I can do nothing. It is because I do not fear pain and suffering, rather I fear having to watch others experience it without being able to help. I have always been someone who was greatly affected by the pain in others, to the point I would get in trouble for it repeatedly. The sad thing about that was in trying to teach me to "have a thick skin" the only lesson I learned was how to hide myself, but that is another matter.

I am the type of person who intentionally avoids the news, not because I desire ignorance but because I feel pain and joy so intensely. It reached a peak with 9/11 attacks...it was bad enough to wake that morning from a dream of people screaming for help. When I went to class my professor asked if I had heard what had happened. I watched and fell to my knees as the first one then the other tower fell. I heard the live feed get cut from first responders as the building collapsed on them and I saw people jumping to their deaths. Yesterday I read and heard survivors posting for help, talking about the horror they had witnessed...something is lost in the translation and many should be thankful for that.

To know there are other places that were attacked, and that some have been attacked for years now, but receive little to no acknowledgement bothers me. But it is only the symptom of a bigger issue. We must stop this useless bickering and fix this problem. I do not believe violence is the answer...in the words of Gandhi: "I object to violence because when it appears to do good, the good is only temporary; the evil it does is permanent." But, humanity has a very bad habit of repeating itself.

This is one reason I do not affiliate with a religion. Very rarely is it used by humanity to serve a wholly positive and altruistic purpose. So frequently it is the source of intolerance, hate, and violence...and I want no part of that. People in this country, and likely others, need to realize that what the media gives them is not necessarily what is being shown in other countries...what I have seen in the US is very mild to what I have read/seen from France. The media skews are view, often to serve a purpose and get ratings, but it does not actually change the reality of the world we live in. This dichotomy is rarely realized as many people simply take what the media states as whole fact and then does not understand why other countries would respond differently.

Our history books are a good place to start with that...take World War II for example. How many history books even mention the internment camps on US soil? I, an avid reader of WWII history, didn't know until much later and that was because of my own investigations rather than a history book. And if my grandfather had not fought in it and gone to Fromosa, I may not have really had much of an understanding at all of Japan's role aside from bombing us. We must always remember, history books are written by the winners and thus are not totally neutral. If you really want to know the whole picture, read the history of the losing side as well...and pay special attention to the actual fighters and their families rather than the leaders.

Overall, this takes me back to Normandie, France. I stood on the beach looking out at the ocean and grey sky, realizing this was where forces landed before Normandie was liberated. I looked out over countless graves honoring those that were lost...and I cried. I thought then that leaders everywhere should see the true cost of war before they thoughtlessly send more troops to fight. I thought, surely they would not send troops needlessly and after the war, the efforts would be to truly heal from the cause of it in the first place. I was naive. Perhaps I still am for thinking the human race is capable of compassion and peace.

For those outside of France who have suffered at the hand of terrorism, I do not know your language and I have not walked your streets to feel the pain as acutely as the attacks on Paris, but my tears are for you as well none-the-less. So I will say it in the language I know: Liban et Bagdad , je ne vous connais pas, mais je mal pour vous aussi. Paris et tout de la monde, il n'y a pas des mots. Je vous pleure avec tout mon cœur. Les larmes n'ont pas de langues; elles sont universales.

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